I Sew Myself Shut!!!

Friday, March 24, 2006

ok... i noe the english is bad... cos i got it from some free translator thing... but the meaning is there lah huh... yup... here it is...

I find you awake you tell I feel me it with a tear spill.
You embrace me, me ice ask me a kiss and I remain without breathing.
Alone wait an alone moment dime is not certain.
Alone you remain you in silence five minutes caress me a moment, they see next to my I will give you the lastkiss, the but deep I will keep my feelings and I will go far from you.
I have so much fear and the fact is that I do not understand that was what I have done badly.
You embrace me, me ice ask me a kiss and I remain without breathing.
Alone wait an alone moment dime is not certain.
Alone you remain you in silence five minutes cariciame a moment, they see next to my I will give you the lastkiss, the but prefundo I will keep my feelings and I will go far from you.
You give me your hand, devulveme the air I gave that love me that are not guilty at least a moment dime thatthis is not certain.
Alone you remain you in silence caress me a moment I gave yourself the last kiss I will keep my sentimientorand I will go far from you.
Alone you remain you in silence five minutes caress me a moment, they see next to my I will give you the lastkiss, the but deep I will keep my feelings and I will go far away of

understand? haha...

xo/- 11:51 AM
Pertie :)

wondering why i've been putting down so many songs? cos i'm in the midst of my attachment now and this few days my boss not around... so i got nothing much to do but sit in the office and freeze... so i found this "my radio station" thingy with yahoo... u guys should go try it out... just click on the link "music" under my links and sign up... it's pretty cool... with it u can listen to music anywhere as long as u have a comp and internet connection... they play pretty cool songs... most of them are quite old and retro though... but they are pretty nice... more for those who like oldies and retro... they do play the newer songs too... yup... just go try it out... no harm... here's another song that they are playing now... nice... and it's r&b... cool... and it's latin...

Solo Quedate En Silencio by "i dunno who cos i can't read ... lol..."

Te encuentro despierto
me dices lo siento
con una lágrima derramas.

Me abrazas, me hielo
me pides un beso
y yo me quedo sin respirar.

Solo espera un momento
solo dime no es cierto.

Solo quédate en silencio cinco minutos
acariciame un momento, ven junto a mi
te daré el último beso, el mas profundo
guardaré mis sentimientos y me iré lejos de ti.

Tengo tanto miedo
y es que no comprendo
que fue lo que yohe hecho mal.

Me abrazas, me hielo
me pides un beso
y yo me quedo sin respirar.

Solo espera un momento
solo dime no es cierto.

Solo quédate en silencio cinco minutos
cariciame un momento, ven junto a mi
te daré el último beso, el mas prefundo
guardaré mis sentimientos y me iré lejos de ti.

Dame tu mano, devulveme el aire
di que me amas que no eres culpable
por lo menos un momento
dime que esto no es cierto.

Solo quédate en silencio
acariciame un momento
te dare el último beso
guardaré mis sentimientor
y me iré lejos de ti.

Solo quédate en silencio cinco minuto
sacariciame un momento, ven junto a mi
te daré el último beso, el mas profundo
guardaré mis sentimientos y me iré lejos de ti.

will put the translation down if i can find it...

xo/- 10:02 AM
Pertie :)

You ask me if I love youI choke on my reply
I’d rather hurt you honestly
Than mislead you with a lie
And who am I to judge you
Or what you say or do
When I’m only just beginning
To see the real you

*and sometimes when we touch
The honesty’s too much
That I have to close my eyes and hide
I wanna hold you till I die
Till we both break down and cry
I wanna hold you till the feelings subside

Romance with all it’s strategy
Leaves me battling with my pride
And through the insecurity
Some tenderness abides
I’m just another writer
Still trapped within my truth
A hesitant prize fighter
Still trapped within his youth

*repeat

Oh at times I want to break you
And drive you to your knees
At times I want to break through
And hold you endlessly

*repeat

xo/- 9:58 AM
Pertie :)

[Verse One]
All I hear is raindrops
Falling on the rooftop
Oh baby tell me why’d you have to go
Cause this pain I feel
It wont go away
And today I’m officially missing you
I thought that from this heartache
I could escape
But I fronted long enough to know
There ain’t no way
And today
I’m officially missing you

[Chorus]
Oh can’t nobody do it like you
Said every little thing you do
Hey baby say it stays on my mind
And I, I’m officially

[Verse Two]
All I do is lay around
Two ears full tears
From looking at your face on the wall
Just a week ago you were my baby
Now I don’t even know you at all
I don’t know you at all
Well I wish that you would call me right now
So that I could get through to you somehow
But I guess it’s safe to say baby safe to say
That I’m officially missing you

[Chorus][Bridge]
Well I thought I could just get over you baby
But I see that’s something I just can’t do
From the way you would hold me
To the sweet things you told me
I just can’t find a way
To let go of you

[Chorus]
It's official
You know that I’m missing you
Yeah yes
All I hear is raindrops
And I’m officially missing you
oh yeah

xo/- 9:28 AM
Pertie :)

sigh... my worst fears have come true... they failed me for all my modules... sigh... actually... looking on the bright side it may not be that bad... it's a new start for me... to catch up on all that i missed... it's a good chance for me... instead of having to struggle thru with 3rd year and barely pulling thru... moreover... i dun like to be in that class cos of somebody... yup... shall not put his bloody name down to dirty my blog and i'm sooooo scared he'll sue me... lol...

chinese has a saying...
yi shi zhu cheng qian ku hen, zai hui tou bai nian sheng

it's direct translation is take a step wrong and it'll cos a thousand pains, and when u wanna turn back it'll take a hundred years.

things started to take a dive (especially my result) since the second sem of year one... why? i guess a few pple noe... but not gonna put this down... after this entry... my blog shall contain nth sad... i hope... i'll put down as much happy stuff as i can... i'm just not cut for studying... maybe i'll join u Ash... in the police force... i wanna be with the CID... u? traffic police on a tiny motorbike? lol... kidding...

well... a brand new start... forget bout everything that happened in the past... i hope... take in a whisp of fresh air (sniiiiiiiiif)... lift up my head (which had been down for so long)... and face the future bravely... dun turn back again... cos nothing is gonna change... since whatever i do is not gonna deserve a good return... guess i'll just concentrate on myself now... but friends... it dun mean i'll give up on you guys... i still love u all... the feelings never change... only things have changed... and really if anyone needs help at all... i still help... the difference is i wun be looking out for u guys so much... i wun turn u down if u come to me...

hope u wun forget me cos i wun forget u

xo/- 9:08 AM
Pertie :)

Thursday, March 23, 2006

I'm gonna make you love me,
Wassup girls
Hi Chris!
So you guys ready?
Yeah we're ready but are you ready?
I don't know, we'll find out.

I'm gonna do everything for you, to show you that my love is true yeah(oh,baby, oh baby)

I'll sacrifice for you, I'll always do what's right for you,
yeah oh baby, baby, baby.
Every minute every hour,I'm gonna shower you with love and affection, look out it's coming in your direction.

I'm gonna make you love me, oh yes I will, yes I will.

[Chris]
Look here girl,
My love is strong for you and I know you'll never get tired of me,
oh baby (oh baby) oh baby

And I'm gonna use every trick in the book,
I'll try my best to get you hooked, oh baby baby.

Every night and everyday I'm gonna getcha,
I'm gonna getcha, look out girl cause I'm gonnagetcha.

[Chorus]
[Chris]
Every breath I take,
Every single step I make, It brings me closer to you baby, closer to you.

[Anias]
You will always be in my heart
For everyday that we're apart
I will always, be with you.

[Rosie]
And every night and everyday

[Chris]
I'm gonna getcha, I'm gonna getcha,
look out girl, 'cause I'm gonna getcha.

[Chorus]
I'm gonna make you love me, yes I will, yes I will, I'm gonna make you love me (yes I will)
I'm gonna make you love me(woh-ooh-woh-oh-oh)
yes I will (oh will)
yes I will.

xo/- 2:37 PM
Pertie :)

worst train ride of the year...

i woke up today feeling really sleepy and grouchy... but din have a choice cos i'm having attachment... reluctantly i climbed down my bed (yes... it's a double decker) and i saw my brother snuggling comfortably in bed... "damn" i said to myself... if only i can be on mc too... i sauntered into my mum's bedroom to use the bathroom and i saw my mum and sis still in lala land... "double damn!!!" this time was out loud but they merely stirred a little and was sound asleep again... went to get changed and frankly... think i look like i'm wearing pyjamas to work today... wore jeans and a long sleeve shirt with stripes down and i din tuck in... looked in the mirror and tot i looked pretty ok... yeah... was about to wear my contact lens and was digging into the container when i realised i couldn't find them... i panicked a little... wondering where i had left them... it was den i realised... i left them in my eyes overnight.... ARGHHHH!!!! i'm gonna die of eye infection!!!! no lah... so it saved me the trouble of putting them on... walked out getting tready to leave den i realised i forgot to take socks... "darn!!!" i blurted... startling my maid... left the house with music of machi di di blasting in my ears... trying to wake myself up... dragged my feet all the way to the mrt... wanted to buy carrot cake from cheers cos was feeling a little hungry... but of all things it has to be the carrot cake that is out of stock... (so my stomach is still rumbling now...)

now the train ride...
first... no space to sit... nvrmd... expected... gradually pple of all sorts filled the train... really of all sorts... at sembawang... this ah pek came in dressed in flip flops and singlet (of cos with an unsightly pair of shorts) and stood right in front of me... he had a horrible stench and everybody moved away... at least tried to... i had a space to move to as well but i was in a very comfortable position and i din wanna risk losing that space of mine so i stubbornly stayed there... fortunately... he got down at khatib... i could once breathe again... but this was only the breginning of my nightmare ride... at ang mo kio... this guy... ok he is pretty ok looking... but he is a damn bloody heavy smoker... n u noe how sensitive i am towards the smell of cigarettes... and i really hate it... stood there... once again right in front of me... till the next stop... thank goodness more pple had to come in and he had to shift his cute little butt in...

NOOOO!!! i did not observe his butt... just a description to make this entry a little more interesting... yeah...

den... this stupid lady came in with i dunno what kinda perfume she was wearing... so darn smelly i tell u... she stood beside me on my left and raised her hand up to hold the bar on my right... y cant she just hold the bar on my left? wah lao eh... i tell u the smell that came out from her armpit was worse then going to the bloody dumpster at carl's junior... that situation stayed till we reached toa payoh and thank god... she and her smelly armpit got off... and at orchard... the other guy... remember the cute butt one? got off too... peace at last i tot... so i closed my eyes to take a rest... at somerset... this was wat i heard... "es-skew meee!!! es-skew meee!!! thank you ah..." at that point of time... i felt something pressing strongly right below my neck... opened my eyes to take a look... u wun believe wat it was... it's a pair of humongous boobs... they were sticking into me... i could hardly breathe man... and yes... the lady was only slightly smaller than the gal in date movie... i mean please lah... if u small small size u squeeze in also nvrmd... the guys happier still.... but wah lao... dun wanna say anything le... so i was like... "excuse me... do u mind..." she looked for awhile and said... "sor-nee ah..." den she turned around... not without LOTS of difficulty... her back faced me... what the f**k... this time her huge ass was sticking into my pelvic area... arghhhh... i give up... when i finally reached raffles place... i was the first one to squeeze out man...

in case u guys were wondering where my position was... it was at the side of one of the doors... on the side where the doors open most of the time... bad position... dun ever stand there... u experience all kind of pple who move into the train...

ok lah... think shall end here... got work to do... boss not around... haha...

:) cheers (:

xo/- 9:02 AM
Pertie :)

Wednesday, March 15, 2006

hmmm... yesterday went to school to see the studednt discipline committee... outcome will be out in a few days' time... hope it's nth too serious... next thing to worry bout is my exams... actually more of just a few modules... sigh...

anyway... today my manager is on mc... i was assigned other stuff to do by another colleague... this time i had to do budgetting for philippines... more difficult but it's ok after awhile... but at least it's something i find familiarity in... haha... but really tired out now... brain think too much le... take pity on this small little brain of mine... haha...

well... i dun feel like blogging much today... so think i'll just end here...

sorry bout the double spacing or no spacing cos the company laptop really sucks...

:) cheers (:

xo/- 5:10 PM
Pertie :)

Monday, March 13, 2006

2nd week of itp...

ms tan came down today... oh... ms tan is my lision officer for itp... yup... she came down to visit me today at the office... the perfume she was using... ralph lauren... the same fragrance as the shower gel we were given during ltc... hah... sure brings back memories... haha... anyway... we had a good chat... din noe her before itp... but now i find her a really cool and nice lecturer to tok to... yup... she's really cute... her stomach growls loudly for a small girl her size... haha...

she loves carl's junior... haha...

yeah... work today sucks... was trying to figure out wat was wrong with this entire set of statistics sitting in front of me...

"The most torturous method of suicide is to sit in front of a set of numbers and trying to stay awake... "

Yeah... that's my thought for the day...

btw... my supervisor's favourite word is... "shit"... haha...

yeah... wat have i been doing over the weekend? hmmm... lemme recall...

i had a severe deja vu... i sat thru a movie i had a feeling i had already watched... wat movie u may ask... it's final destination 3... watched it on sat with my family cos it was my mum's bdae... now the irony...

ohhhh... now i remember... i DID watch it... with jess and sean... ohhh... ok...

yeah... was just spitting crap... spent quite a lot on sat for my mum... brought her to crystal jade to eat... *see... it's lucky to be related to me in one way or another...* yeah... den treated her to movie... bought her an ice-cream cake from swensons... bought her durian puffs and ice-cream... went to the arcade with the family...

watever it is... as long as she is happy... i dun mind... anyway... tmr on leave again... have to "visit" the school disciplinary committee again... sigh... hope everything turns out fine... next to worry after that is whether i will pass my exams... hmmm... lala... there's just too much on my mind... cant think straight... sigh...just hope everything blows over real fast... sigh... sleepy... think wed i will stock up on coffee to stay awake... sighs... wanna get home fast and watch dvds... and no... they are not porn k... shall stop here... i noe it's abrupt but it's 6 pm... time to knock off... haha...

:) cheers (:

xo/- 5:23 PM
Pertie :)

Thursday, March 9, 2006

4th day of itp...

today was a lot more productive... was calculating expenses allocation and keying indirect expenses the whole day... i finally got to rest at bout 5... now my eyes can see nothing but lots n lots of numbers... lol...

anyway... yesterday brought xuan for interview and will be starting work with me in april... lol... there's gonna be lots of fun... den after that watch final destination 3 at suntec cinema with jess and sean... the plot was nth new... the usual premonition followed by a bunch of pple escaping death but gradually die in weird accidents in the order they would have died in the premonition... n how they fight their destiny by fighting death... the only reason y i will wanna watch this movie is each sequeal gets grosser... n the suspense lies in how each person will die...

several more movies i wanna watch... there's pink panther which i was supposed to watch with somebody who mysteriously disappeared on me... but since i promisedto watch that with her i will not watch it... there's also 2 comedies that i wanna watch... date movie and big momma's house 2... anyone who wanna watch any of these two movies must jio me ah... lol...

after being alone for the past two to three weeks... i guess i've realised that i can be on my own... this particular song that i've been listening to perks me up... very catchy and it gets stuck in my head... let me just put it down...

Y.M.C.A

Young man, there's no need to feel down.
I said, young man, pick yourself off the ground.
I said, young man, 'cause you're in a new town
There's no need to be unhappy.

Young man, there's a place you can go.
I said, young man, when you're short on your dough.
You can stay there, and I'm sure you will find
Many ways to have a good time.

It's fun to stay at the Y-M-C-A.
It's fun to stay at the Y-M-C-A.
They have everything for you men to enjoy,
You can hang out with all the boys ...

It's fun to stay at the Y-M-C-A.
It's fun to stay at the Y-M-C-A.
You can get yourself cleaned, you can have a good meal,
You can do whatever you feel ...

Young man, are you listening to me?
I said, young man, what do you want to be?
I said, young man, you can make real your dreams.
But you got to know this one thing!

No man does it all by himself.
I said, young man, put your pride on the shelf,
And just go there, to the Y-M-C-A.
I'm sure they can help you today.

It's fun to stay at the Y-M-C-A.
It's fun to stay at the Y-M-C-A.
They have everything for you men to enjoy,
You can hang out with all the boys ...

It's fun to stay at the Y-M-C-A.
It's fun to stay at the Y-M-C-A.
You can get yourself cleaned, you can have a good meal,
You can do whatever you feel ...

Young man, I was once in your shoes.
I said, I was down and out with the blues.
I felt no man cared if I were alive.
I felt the whole world was so tight ...

That's when someone came up to me,
And said, young man, take a walk up the street.
There's a place there called the Y-M-C-A.
They can start you back on your way.

It's fun to stay at the Y-M-C-A.
It's fun to stay at the Y-M-C-A.
They have everything for you men to enjoy,
You can hang out with all the boys ...

Y-M-C-A... you'll find it at the Y-M-C-A.

Young man, young man, there's no need to feel down.
Young man, young man, get yourself off the ground.

Y-M-C-A ... you'll find it at the Y-M-C-A.

Young man, young man, there's no need to feel down.
Young man, young man, get yourself off the ground.

Y-M-C-A ... just go to the Y-M-C-A.
Young man, young man, are you listening to me?
Young man, young man, what do you wanna be?

xo/- 5:45 PM
Pertie :)

Wednesday, March 8, 2006

Today... On leave... That's why i can type so much better already... In school now... Just went to see the school disciplinary board... Outcome not known yet... Hope it wun be too bad... Sigh... Next week got one more time... Sigh... These sucks man... Anyway... Me later meeting Xuan... Gonna work at Carl's Junior with me... So fun... Go for interview first... After that going to watch movie with Jessica... Since CNY... Till now got no chance... Hopefully today can lah... I'm hungry... Later go eat with Jess and Xuan...

Hmmm... Ok lah... Think i better make my way down le... I'm late... Supposed to meet them at 12... Lol... Been facing the comp too much too... Spoiling my eyes... K lah... Shall end here...

:) Cheers (:

xo/- 11:44 AM
Pertie :)

Tuesday, March 7, 2006

2nd day of itp...

it's still boring... still cold... keyboard is still spoilt... except that now the right shift button is also spoilt... not in the mood to do anything... cos tmr will be my first sentence... for the mc thing... next week will be my 2nd... for the exam thing... but i may try to settle it tmr tog...

i'm hungry again...

sianz...

A song for a particular someone (who wun see it... lol...)

Don't Turn Around - Ace of Base

If you wanna leave
I won't beg you to stay
And if you gotta go darling
Maybe it's better that way
I'm gonna be strong
I'm gonna do fine
Don't worry about this heart of mine
Just walk out the door
See if I care
Go on and go, but

Don't turn around
'Cause you're gonna see my heart breaking
Don't turn aroundI don't want you seeing me cry
Just walk away
It's tearing me apart that you're leaving
I'm letting you go
But I won't let you go

I won't miss your arms around me
Holding me tight
And if you ever think about me
Just know that I'll be alright
I'm gonna be strong
I'm gonna do fine
Don't worry about this heart of mine
I will survive
I'll make it through
I'll even learn to live without you

Don't turn around...

I wish I could scream out loud
That I love you
I wish I could say to you
Don't go
As he walks away
He feels the pain growing strong
People in your life
They don't know what's going on
Too proud to turn around
He's gone

xo/- 5:01 PM
Pertie :)

Monday, March 6, 2006

my first day at itp... IS SOOOOOOO BORING!!!!!!!!!!!!

first... i was told to report at 8.30am... but there was barely anyone ard... i had to wait till 9.40am before someone attended to me... grrrrrr...

den i was asked to do data entry using excel... not like having to do data entry the whole day was not bad enough... to make things worse... the keyboard of this stupid laptop sucks... the left shift dun work and i use that like all the time... the spacebar spaces twice whenever i press it and the backspace backs twice whenever i press it... HOW TO TYPE?????? and wat makes me feel worse is the data i have to type is either china data... pakistan data... bangladesh or sri lanka data... non of them are english... their company names are damn weird... i mean...it's BANG-GA-LA for goodness sake...

the next thing is... i have to walk like damn far to take my stupid lunch... ok... it wasn't really dat far... cos not in a very good mood that's y i found it irritating to have to even walk to have my lunch...

the only think that is good is that i can use msn while doing work... also... if i have the time i can blog... i have been banned from the comp for so long i'm having withdrawal symptoms... lol... oh yeah... that reminds me... i haven checked my friendster in awhile...

yeah... i'm blogging now cos my manager asked me to take a rest... i guess it's cos they dun have anything for me to do... isn't it great to be paid $440 just to do stuff like dat? oh... in case u dunno... i'm also playing online pool... haha... i've been playing since 4 plus... well... they prob forgot bout me already... tsk tsk... yeah...

alright... enough bout itp... wat have i been doing... well... my exams were over only last fri... went down to accompany jess to carl's junior before gg home... den worked for 14 hours at carl's junior on sat... and someone really pissed me off... thank goodness jess came down to cheer me up... so sweet of her... she was supposed to watch final destination 3 with me on fri but unfortunately she had to work till late... but she said she'll make it up... her treat... and she's watching date movie with me too... it's a damn funny show lah... cant help but laugh everytime i see the thriller on the mrt... haha... no doubt i had been relatively depressed... but it sure makes things a lot better to have jess ard... hmmm...

oh yes... the toilet in my office is so cold that the toilet bowl can freeze your butt i swear... ok... i noe it's a little random...

anyway... i've been trying to ask a friend out but she refuses to... i guess there's nth i can do bout it right... if she chooses to throw away a 6-year friendship... well... i guess i have to respect her choice... just praying silently that everything goes well for her from now on...

i'm hungry...

i can leave in ten minutes... later i'll drop by carl's junior to visit jess since she specifically said she hope to see me later... lol... cant help it when i'm so popular and am missed by so many pple... lol... nah... just trying to boost my ego... n it's making me sound like some ass... like ash... dash... flash... sash... bash... lash... mash... or even monash... it's just not nash... yeah... anyway... i'm gonna continue playing game... so till we meet again...

adios amiegos...

xo/- 5:18 PM
Pertie :)

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