I Sew Myself Shut!!!

Wednesday, August 31, 2005

Today... Me was late for lesson... Reached school at 9.25 am when my lesson starts at 9... Lol... Den first thing get back my IS test... To my utmost surprise... As in... Ya noe... Really surprised... I passed... Haha... To think i did not noe what was IS all about till that morning before the test itself... And i haven been attending classes and even when i did i wasn't listening... Cos i tot it was a semestral module... It was only two weeks ago that i knew it was a year long module with a text book... Yes... It was TWO WEEKS ago that I knew we had to buy a TEXT BOOK... Haha... Anyway... Though I haven been doing very well... I'm glad i'm not doing too badly... Just gotta work a lot harder to do a lot better than just a PASS... I can PASS... Anyway... Shall end here... With a song I heard on my way to school...

Let Me Hold You - Bow Wow

feat. Omarion
[JD Talk]
[Bow Wow]
his What You need to Do Girl ...
LET ME HOLD YOU
I been watching you for a minute come through here so sweet centered
In life girl you need me Get it?
IM determined to win it I know what you need
I know what's wrong
I know how to make it tight
Everything will be all right
If ya
LET ME HOLD YOU
And Introduce you to my world
And Introduce you to the better side of life that you aint been seeing girl
Ima show you where its at And Ima show you how to get it
all you got do is be wit it and
LET ME HOLD YOU
Down like a real mans supposed to
I never would have approached you
If I aint have intentions on doing good
See dude you wit is so fooled
To me girl your so cool
And all Im asking you to do is
LET ME HOLD YOU
Down like a best friend and two homies in the game
When you cry I wanna feel your pain
No Secrets , No Games
All Excitement , Nothing Plain
Keep you happy
Thats my aim
And all you gotta do girl is LET ME HOLD YOU

[chorus]
In My arms In my mind all the time I wanna keep you right by my side
till I die im gonna hold you down and make sure everything is right wit you you can never go wrong if you LET ME HOLD YOU
down like a real friends supposed to im trying to show you the life of somebody like you should be living
OOOooHHhh Baby Baby you could never go wrong If you let me hold you

[Bow Wow]
Ima Keep you up on whats popping and shake you fresh to death
when we hit the mall we can ball till theres no more leftI know you aint used to it but you gon get used to itcause thats the only way im a do you and just LET MELET ME HOLD YOU
All my hommies think Im tripping cause I got you a padsee they just mad cause they aint get you they aint get you

SCORPIO is your sign and girl your so fine
And i would do whatever in no time
LET ME HOLD YOU
No Shine
Its what your coming with but Ima change all that
Rearrange that
Put you in the range all blackwith the rims to match phone attached TVs in the back
How you gon say no to that? Huh
LET ME HOLD YOU
Ni**as Look at me like now here you go really bout to blow some doe
But ain't nobody did it before so why is you so go hold it
Cause I believe this was meant to beI just gotta work at it like a crack attic up in rehab

[chorus]
In My arms In my mind all the time I wanna keep you right by my side till I die im gonna hold you down and make sure everything is right wit you you can never go wrong if you LET ME HOLD YOU
down like a real friends supposed to im trying to show you the life of somebody like you should be livingOOOooHHhh Baby Baby you could never go wrong If you let me hold you

[Bow Wow]
down down around
Atlanta Lanta
Fah Found
And everybody know now what Im tryna do
I say down down around
Atlanta Lanta Fah Found
Im just tryna get you to
LET ME HOLD YOU

[Bow Wow]
down down around
Atlanta Lanta
Fah Found
nd everybody know now what Im tryna do
I say down down around
Atlanta Lanta Fah Found
Im just tryna get you to
LET ME HOLD YOU

[chorus]
In My arms In my mind all the time I wanna keep you right by my side till I die im gonna hold you down and make sure everything is right wit you you can never go wrong if you LET ME HOLD YOU
down like a real friends supposed to im trying to show you the life of somebody like you should be living
OOOooHHhh Baby Baby you could never wrong If you let me hold you

[JD Talks]
[Bow Wow Talks]
[Omarion Talks]

xo/- 11:25 AM
Pertie :)

Tuesday, August 30, 2005

Today is a pretty ok day... Just feeling a little week... Haven been feeling well since Sat morning... Watch dvd in the library during the 2-hour break... This few days been seeing someone ard in school and the sight of her cheers me up man... Haha... Hmmm... But at the same time I am very irritated with somebody... I guess only Nat will noe who are these two pple i'm toking bout... Haha... Nat... We gotta study real hard k? And thanx for being ard for me all the time... K lah.. Before i go... Let me just put down a song...

Everything I Do (I Do It For You) - Bryan Adams

Look into my eyes - you will see
What you mean to me
Search your heart - search your soul
And when you find me there you'll search no more
Don't tell me it's not worth tryin' for
You can't tell me it's not worth dyin' for
You know it's true
Everything I do - I do it for you
Look into my heart - you will find
There's nothin' there to hide
Take me as I am - take my life
I would give it all I would sacrifice
Don't tell me it's not worth fightin' for
I can't help it there's nothin' I want more
Ya know it's true
Everything I do - I do it for you
There's no love - like your love
And no other - could give more love
There's nowhere - unless you're there
All the time - all the way
Don't tell me it's not worth tryin' for
I can't help it there's nothin' I want more
I would fight for you - I'd lie for you
Walk the wire for you - Ya I'd die for you
Ya know it's true
Everything I do - I do it for you

xo/- 7:19 PM
Pertie :)

Monday, August 29, 2005

Yeah mun!!! I am damn chao ta now... All thanx to yesterday's trg... The sun was damn strong lah... Haha... And all thanx to yesterday's trg... I now have a v-shaped tan line on my neck cos i was wearing a polo tee... And all thanx to yesterday's trg... I have three extra bruises on my hands...

And talking bout yesterday's trg... I wanna say a big thank you to Zi Xuan!!! I was on teh same boat as him... A full rig... I was sitting at the bow of the boat... And he kindly did a sharp tack like twice and both times he threw me into the water by doing so... And the bestest thing is... He left me in the water the second time...

THANK YOU ZI XUAN!!!

Anyway... I was driving the powerboat... As usual... And i managed to do along side parking... Finally!!! Haha... I am so happy... Sure can pass one... I just need more practices... Yup... Anyway... Not really thinking now...

xo/- 9:21 PM
Pertie :)

Saturday, August 27, 2005

Hmmm... First thing first... Yesterday... as out till qute late... Reached home at like 9 plus... But had quite a lot of fun... Haha... And on my way back home... On the train... I was pretty tired... So i wanted to sit down... What i saw nearly made me puke out everything i ate earlier in the day... It was blood stains on the seat... You guys noe what i'm toking bout right... Haha... Yucks...

Today... Went out to sea... Feeling very drained now cos the sun was quite scorching and i was in the sun the entire afternoon... But i learnt quite a lot of things lah... Heh... Kk... I wanna go play game le... The song below is a song a friend of mine intro to me... She sent to me and after i listened to it... I find it quite nice... So now i'll share with everyone else... :)

One Last - Taufik

never could imagine life without u
from the moment u walked into my world
never know how long the loving flame could burn
but losing u has forced me to learn
but we can't change the way we feel inside
and every try at love never turns out right
we both knowit's better if we just let it go

chorus:
so let's have one last kiss
one last touch
one last tender moment between us
one last dance
to our first song
while pretending there's nothing wrong
let's stay here for a while
and, cherish every moment we're in denial
we both know
it's better if we just let it go

everytime i try to take a stand at all
i see your face again and i fallin the middle of the night there's a scent of the rose
the smell of your perfume i supposed
but we can't change the way we feel inside
and every try at love never turns out right
we both knowit's better if we just let it go

back 2 chorus

baby even maybe we'll meet each other under a different sky
we can always share this one special things we shared
but it would be too much for us to be..
so lets have

back

we both know...
it's better if we just let it go...

xo/- 9:45 AM
Pertie :)

Friday, August 26, 2005

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I am like freaking pissed... I dun wish to say anything else... Cos I'm afraid SOMEONE will SUE me and that someone's mother will SUE me... Used vulgarity on gals still got the cheek to bring it up to the director... Tak tahu malu sia... So darn freaking childish... U guys noe wat... As i'm typing this... I'm so afraid someone will read this... And den show it to this someone else... Den it gets printed and gets shown to the director... N... N... I'm gonna get sued!!! N... I'll probably gotta apologise man... But let me tell you... Not everyone is a pushover... I for one thing will not allow it to happen to my friends... You can step on me (if i allow it)... But if u step on my friends... Dat's it man... Wanna bring up to court... See who's on the losing end... You jolly well noe what u've been doing and saying... More den enough to land you in jail... You wanna play games with me... I'll play with you... If you wanna even try to make any of our lives miserable... Dun expect to live yours in peace... Dun even act your age... Fancy picking on pple 6 years your junior... Dunno wat is shame huh?

And to the someone else who told the other someone else... You get so protective over him? You dun even noe wat he's been saying bout you and your current bf behind your back... You dun even noe wat he's been saying to Mrs Tang... You think he really treats you as a friend huh? You are nothing but his laughing stock when you're not around gal... I have nothing against you personally... Just him... Whatever it is... You just watch what he'll do to you in future...

xo/- 6:47 PM
Pertie :)

Thursday, August 25, 2005

She got out of town on the railway, new york bound
Took all except my name
Another alien on broadway
Well, some things in this world you just can't change
Some things you can't see until it gets too late
[Chorus]
Baby, baby, baby when all your love is gone
Who will save me from all I'm up against out in this world
And maybe, maybe, maybe
You'll find something that's enough to keep you
But if the bright lights don't receive you
You should turn yourself around and come on home
I got a hole in me now
I got a scar I can talk about
She keeps a picture of me in her apartment in the city
But some things in this world
Man, they don't make sense
Some things you don't leave until they leave you
And then the things that you miss, you say
[Chorus]
Baby, baby, baby when all your love is gone
Who will save me from all I'm up against out in this world
And maybe, maybe, maybe
You'll find something that's enough to keep you
But if the bright lights don't receive you
You should turn yourself around and come on home
Let that city take you in (come on home)
Let that city spit you out (come on home)
Let that city take you down, yeah
For god sakes turn around
[Chorus]
Baby, baby, baby when all your love is gone
Who will save me from all I'm up against out in this world
Yeah well, maybe, maybe, maybe
You'll find something that's enough to keep you
But if the bright lights dont receive you
Well, turn yourself around and come on home
Yeah, come on home
Baby, baby, baby, baby
Come on home
Yeah, come on home
Yeah, come on home
Yeah, come on home
Baby, baby, baby, baby
Come on home

Feeling a little depressed today... Dunno why also... :( I.. Sigh... I dunno wat's going on in my life also... But i guess it'll get better lah... :)

xo/- 9:22 PM
Pertie :)

Wednesday, August 24, 2005

It's a cold day today... And i've been sitting in the aircon for like nearly the past 2 hours... My fingers are numb man... Hmmm... Just had a stupid test which i dun understand a stupid thing... Think i've been stressed out the past two days cos i've had nightmares the past two nights... Wahahaha... Here's what i think is really sweet and meaningful... And of cos true...

If you really love someone...

If you're afraid to love a person because of friendship,
you have two choices:
either tell what you feel and let the love take place
or hide thefeeling under a friendship full of pretensions.

It's hard for two people to love each other when
they live in two different worlds but when these
two worlds collide and become one, that's what you call magic!

Love can never be so beautiful without friendship.
One leads to another and the process is irreversible.
The best of lovers is the greatest of friends!
I like you because you're my friend, and because you are my friend
I care, and because I care, I love you.
I don't love you because you are my friend,
I love you because I do!

Sometimes I've asked myself, what would make me happy?
To think that I have everything else, I get what I want.
Then I realized it was YOU, too bad 'cause it's you i can't have.
I can't choose who I'm gonna love, but I also can't love who chooses to love me.
And you can't blame me in choosing to love you
as much as I can't blame you for not learning to love me.
I'm sorry if you can't love me the way you loved the one before me,
so I'll let you go find him/her and hope someday you'll see that the one true love you're looking for was the one who set you free.

"How can I say goodbye to someone I never had?
Why do tears fall for someone who was never mine?
Why is that I miss someone I was never with and I ask why I love someone who's love was never mine?"

Isn't it funny we're trying to catch the attention of the one we think we love;
we hardly notice the one we're really looking for was just there.
You don't notice them 'till they are in the arms of someone else.

Food for thought, think of this:
Have you really cared for someone more than you expected?
Have you ever tried to love him/her despite of all the pain?
Will you keep on loving him/her as he/she whispers someone else's name?
Will you? It's better to lose your pride with someone you love rather than lose that someone you love with your useless pride.
When you love someone, don'texpect that person to love you back the same amount.
One of you will be head, the other behind.
It's either you catch up or the other waits.
When you love, you must not accept anything in return, for if you do, you're not loving but investing.

If you love, you must prepare to accept pain, for if you expect happiness, you're not loving but using. True love hears what is not spoken, and understands what is not explained, for love oesn't work in the mouth, nor the mind, but in the heart... Love is like standing on wet cement, the longer you stay the harder it is to leave and you can never go without leaving your prints behind.Don't love a person like a flower, because a flower dies in season. Love them like a river because a river flows forever.Love doesn't have to have a happy ending, 'cause love doesn't have to end at all. Never be afraid to fall in love. It may hurt a lot, it may give you aches and pains, but if you don't follow your heart, in the end you will cry even more for not giving love a chance. Love may leave your heart like shattered glass, but keep in mind that there's someone who'll be willing to endure the pain of picking up the pieces so you could be whole again.The cruelest thing a guy could do to a girl is to let her fall in love when he doesn't intend to catch her fall! And fooling around with her feelings like they meant nothing..

xo/- 10:46 AM
Pertie :)

Tuesday, August 23, 2005

Hmmm... Things weren't very well for the past ten hours... First... My printer couldn't work and I couldn't print out my notes which I had to study for today... Den when i went to sleep... I had a horrible nightmare which left me feeling fucked up when i woke up this morning... Den this morning I tried to print my notes again and guess wat? My mouse can't work this time... So i had to come to school to do the printing... Waste money... And when I left my house it was bright and sunny... But when i reached the MRT station... It was overcast... And worse still when i reached school... It was pouring... I had to take a bus from the MRT station to my fac... Waste money again... And still got wet in the rain... Cos this particular part of my school din have shelter... And when i reached the block i wanted to go to... I realised I could have reached it without getting wet by climbling up the staircase first den walk across... rather than walk across first den climb up the stairs... The only thing that was good was that someone finally realised that it'll be better for everyone if everyone can sit down properly and tok things out... I'm glad things are going better... I really hope everything will turn out well... I mean it's like everyone is attached again... No need to remain as enemies right? Just be friends and forget the past... I hope when she say she can... She really can... Yup... I mean i dun wish to see things remain the way they are now too... Makes everyone feel bad only... Right? Yup... So... I'd better go study le... Not much time left and moreover... The guy sitting next to me has fucking bad breath... I really gotta go man... Before i faint...

Cheers... Good luck for tax guys... :)

xo/- 10:37 AM
Pertie :)

Monday, August 22, 2005

Something quite dumb i did that i forgot to mention in my posts... On Fri... Nat and I were in the biz library and she was supposed to be rushing her report when... My fingers got itchy and i started pressing all the buttons on teh scanner right next to her comp... It started operating and scanning and so i put my hand there to scan... Den i printed it out... Den Nat got really excited and we started playing with the scanner... Scanning and printing out our faces... Distorted by movements and also with Nat's hand waving in front of my face when scanning... The printed pics were hilarious... As a result... Nat din manage to finish her report... Haha... You guys should try it one day... :)

xo/- 11:54 PM
Pertie :)

I'm so scared that you will see
All the weakness inside of me
I'm so scared of letting go
That the pain I've hid will show (oh)

I know you want to hear me speak
But I'm afraid that if I start to
I'll never stop

[Chorus:]
I want you to know you belong in my life
I love the hope I see in your eyes
For you I would fly, at least I would try
For you I'll take the last flight out

I'm afraid that you will leave
As my secrets have been revealed (oh)
In my dreams you'll always stay (you'll always stay)
Ev'ry breathing moment from now (oh, oh)

I know you want to hear me speak (I know, yeah)
But I'm afraid that if I start to
I'll never stop

[Repeat chorus]

[Bridge:]
I cannot hold back the truth no more
I let you wait too long (wait too long)
Although it's hard and scares me so
A life without you scares me more
Scares me more...oh, oh La, la, la...

The last flight out
For you I would fly, at least I would try (yeah, baby, yeah)
For you I'll take the last flight out(Oh, I would take the last flight out)

[Repeat chorus]

xo/- 11:03 PM
Pertie :)

As the title speaks for itself... Enough is enough... I had enough of all this attitude you've been giving me... You wanna keep away from me? Dun want me to look for you? Fine... So be it... I wun... Ever again... Just dun come looking for me when you need help... I'm not your punch bag, your tissue paper, your atm machine, your errand boy, your servant and wat not... I'm not obliged to be at your beck and call... I dun owe you anything k? I dun have to live by your attitude all the time... I'm not a pet dog whereby you play with when you are in a good mood and not give a fucking damn when u are in a bad mood... Ok? You say it shows that we are so close that only i can tahan your attitude... Maybe we're not that close after all... Go look for someone else to do all these crap to... I know you dun read my blog... And i dun wanna say all this right in your face to only once again face your attitude... I noe all this will not make you feel hurt... It'll only make you pissed... If we're really such good friends... You'll bother to find out why i'm feeling lidat... But no... You nvr bother... Everytime i bring it up... You only show me attitude... So ok... I'll stop everything here and here... So you dun hafta give me any more of your attitude and neither will i have to put up with it... I was wrong all this while... We were not even close to being friends... I was only someone you can turn to when you need solutions... Sorry... I really cant take it anymore... I cant... Not that i dun wanna be there for u... But i just cant tolerate it anymore... It's been months that all this is happening... I think i had been there for you long enough whereas you were not there for me when i need you... Sorry... I've done my best... I nvr minded being everything i mentioned above if you will even treat me a little better... Sigh... Sorry...

xo/- 6:43 PM
Pertie :)

Me wanted to post yesterday... But was really tired out... Went for training yesterday and came back with a huge bruise on my left hand... Ahahaha... Very painful lah... Kena storm yesterday... But was having fun driving around in the powerboat which had no power steering... Shhh... I got no licence one... Haha... Highly illegal... Tsk tsk... Den kena storm tt time wind damn strong... So fun... Wanna sail but got lightning... So cant... Sianz... Den had a meeting with the juniors and den went with Dale to the 7-11 nearby to get his food... After that went home... Wat was i doing? I cant seem to remember... I only remembered msging someone and den reading archie comics and playing games... Den i think i went to sleep le... Haha... Yeah that's it... I remembered wat i was doing... Haha... Oh... There was sth else... I ate my dinner... And yes... Was playing my phone the bluetooth stuff... Haha... Den suddenly felt very sleepy and went to sleep... Was hoping I'll get a fever from the heavy rain but i guess i was too strong... Wanted to get MC and stay home today lah... So that can study for tmr's test... Anyway... Right now I'm feeling sorta troubled and worried cos i am unable to contact a friend of mine for the entire day and it is quite worrying... So i dun feel like blogging much also... Yupz... That's all for today den... Or for now lah.... May blog again later tonight... Or maybe not... Cos gotta study... Yupz...

Cheers :(

xo/- 3:34 PM
Pertie :)

Friday, August 19, 2005

I am blogging again... Cos i'm like skipping lesson and waiting for nat to finish her stuff... Hmmm... Bored lah... Supposed to get back RWPS paper... But din go... But according to Esther... I got 79.5... Hmmm... Lecturer said i got use common sense... I dun think it's a compliment cos since it's common sense... It means everyone has it... Which means she's just saying I'm common... Haha... It's only insulting if people say u dun use common sense... But it's not a compliment when pple say u do... Haha... She also said my command of English is good... Wait till she see my JC GP standard... Now standard already like dropped a lot le... Cos dun do as much writing as in JC... Hmmm... But welll at least it's a compliment... Haha... Man... I just sneezed and all my hair is standing... Brrrr.... Man... I believe it's sth supernatural that just passed me... Actually many pple dunno... But it's a different feeling when it's just a normal sneeze and when it's sth supernatural passing by u... Yup... A normal sneeze will not make all your hair stand unless the weather is very cold... If u sneeze and all your hair stand for a few secs den you dun feel any coldness... It means it's supernatural stuff... Haha... Believe it or not... Up to u... But this kind is harmless one lah... So it's not a prob... Yup... Hmmm... I'm like super bored... NAAAAAAATTTTTTT!!!!! ARE YOU DONE???!!!!! Hmphf... Take so long... She owes me lunch man... :p

The song I'm listening to now...

Frankie J - How To Deal

Sometimes a man has to choose
And do something he doesn't wanna do
Do I live my life with you as my wife
Or do I go on and pursue my lifetime dream
I gotta do this for me
Cuz if I don't I'll probably regret it
But if I do I'll probably regret it
How do I cope

How do you cope when
The one you love is with somebody else
And there's nothing you could do about it
How do I deal with
The fact that you had a chance
But you chose to turn away for your career
I gotta take it though it's heartbreakin'
It's something that I had to do
But nobody said that it would hurt so badS
o how do I live...how do I deal without you

It's killing me to know
That your heart hurts with me
But you're with him cause I chose
To be in this industry
Money, shows, and hoes come along with luxury and pain
Is all you see when you think about it
But this is the life that I was given
So I have to live it to the fullest
But how do I deal in the meantime without you

How do you cope when
The one you love is with somebody else
And there's nothing you could do about it
How do I deal with
The fact that you had a chance
But you chose to turn away for your career
I gotta take it though it's heartbreakin'
It's something that I had to do
But nobody said that it would hurt so bad
So how do I live...how do I deal without you

How do you deal with when you cant be with the one
When the one you love is with somebody else
What do you do when you know she dont love him
But she love you, but she cant stand loving you far away
I guess I'm gonna have to just deal with it deal with it.
I dont want to have to live with it.
You just deal with it, deal with it. No, No, No, No
You just deal with it, deal with it.
I dont want no body else loving you, I dont want no body else loving me.

How do you cope when
The one you love is with somebody else
And there's nothing you could do about it
How do I deal with
The fact that you had a chance
But you chose to turn away for your career
I gotta take it though it's heartbreakin'
It's something that I had to do
But nobody said that it would hurt so bad
So how do I live...how do I deal without you

How do you cope when
The one you love is with somebody else
And there's nothing you could do about it
How do I deal with
The fact that you had a chance
But you chose to turn away for your career

Alright... She's finally done... Gotta go off le... See when i free i blog again lah...

Cheers :)

xo/- 3:58 PM
Pertie :)

Here I am having a freaking four hour break again... Gonna go out after school later... Hmmm... :p Anyway... I've like an expedition coming up in less than two weeks... So damn tired... Well... Apparently somone thinks i wanna screw up her chance to be president... But all i can say is... Dale already said it's either her or me and i dun wish to be president... So which ever it is... She'll still be president wat...

Anyway... I all of a sudden became more focused... I'm surprised myself too... I start paying attention and not day dreaming... I guess when you dun have any worries (or rather less) you'll be able to concentrate better... Heh... I'm actually quite ons bout the expedition... Only that it'll be over a weekend and recalling the previous one... All of us slept for like one entire week and this time round... We cant cos it'll be during school term... Hmmm... I've a feeling i'm gonna miss tax tutorial on that monday again... Hmmm... Cannot... Die die also must wake up and go for lesson... Must get all my priorities right...

I LOVE SAILING AND ALL THE SAILORS!!!

Haha... Sorry... Actually i love my class too... I still love them... Just that... Sigh... Nvrmd... It's just so depressing talking bout them... But well... I do love you guys...

Here's sth i wanna share with you guys. People say gals gossip in toilets... Wat about guys? Do they just do their biz quietly? No they dun... This is wat i heard in the toilet... Two guys' conversation... I was in the handicap toilet outside the biz library and cos it's sorta connected to the guys toilet... You can actually hear very clearly wat they say...

Guy A: Hey look!!! It's yellow...
Guy B: Erm yeah... What colour do you think it should be?
Guy A: White lah!!!
Guy B: Yeah... It'll be white if you drink lots of water... Otherwise it'll be yellow...
Guy A: No... If i drink lots of water it'll be transparent... But wat i mean is it should be white...
Guy B: I dun think so...
Guy A: Do you noe wat i'm talking about anot?
Guy B: Erm... No?
Guy A: I'm not talking bout pee... I'm talking bout sperms lah!!!
Guy B: Oh... Haha... Yeah... So since yours is yellow... Your d**k must be rotting lah...

Den i was outta the toilet... Din intend to stay in there to continue listening to such a bo liao conversation... So now we noe wat guys tok about in the toilet... Haha...

Anywyaz... This the song i'm listening to and i'll like to putit down... Really nice... And nostalgic... Hmmm... Brings back great memories... Here it is...

She will be loved - Marron 5

Beauty queen of only eighteen
She had some trouble with herself
He was always there to help her
She always belonged to someone else

I drove for miles and miles
And wound up at your door
I've had you so many times but somehow
I want more

I don't mind spending everyday
Out on your corner in the pouring rain
Look for the girl with the broken smile
Ask her if she wants to stay awhile
And she will be loved
She will be loved

Tap on my window knock on my door
I want to make you feel beautiful
I know I tend to get so insecure
It doesn't matter anymore
It's not always rainbows and butterflies
It's compromise that moves us along
My heart is full and my door's always open
You can come anytime you want

I don't mind spending everyday
Out on your corner in the pouring rain
Look for the girl with the broken smile
Ask her if she wants to stay awhile
And she will be loved
And she will be loved
And she will be loved
And she will be loved

I know where you hide
Alone in your car
Know all of the things that make you who you are
I know that goodbye means nothing at all
Comes back and begs me to catch her every time she falls
Tap on my window knock on my door
I want to make you feel beautiful

I don't mind spending everyday
Out on your corner in the pouring rain
Look for the girl with the broken smile
Ask her if she wants to stay awhile
And she will be loved
And she will be loved
And she will be loved
And she will be loved
[in the background]
Please don't try so hard to say goodbye
Please don't try so hard to say goodbye
Yeah
[softly]
I don't mind spending everyday
Out on your corner in the pouring rain
Try so hard to say goodbye

xo/- 11:32 AM
Pertie :)

Sunday, August 14, 2005

Woah... Me just reached home from training... Feeling very tired out from the sun... Hmmm... Wun say much today cos i got work to do... Yup yup... Actually today got mixed feelings lah... But dun feel like putting it down in words... Haha... Ok... Shall stop here... Will end with a song...

How Could You - Mario

{Verse 1}
It's kinda crazy baby, How i remember things, (like where you came from and how you had nothin) I went and made you fly, Put extras on ya ride, (didnt miss a birthday now u cant even remember mine)

{Hook}
U made it clear to me (you wasn't down for me) (I may be blind baby) But now I see (you had things up your sleeve, dont even lie to me) I even heard it from yo family...

{Chorus}
How could you let somebody lay where I layed? How could you give him everything that we made? How could you call him all the names thaat u used to call me? How could you how could you just forget bout me? How could you teach him all the things I taught You? How could you put him up to the Ghetto Karmasutra? How could you put me in the back and give him the front seat? How could you how could you just forget bout me?

{Verse}
You must be out yo mind YOu got alot of nerve (to think that im gone chill after at tha shit I heard) I damn near carried you I could've married you Good thing I found out b4 I bought that 7karate for ya (I kno ur sick about) the way i found you out (GO head and pack it out) I hope he got room at his house You should have thought of me b4 u hopped in the sheets Damn I cant believe that u did this to me...

{Chorus}
How could you let somebody lay where I layed? How could you give him everything that we made? How could you call him all the names that u used to call me? How could you how could you just forget bout me? How could you teach him all the things I taught You? How could you put him up to the Ghetto Karmasutra? How could you put me in the back and give him the front seat? How could you how could you just forget bout me?

(Bridge}
(Girl i tried to...) Give u everything Can't believe the ways u repaid me (Girl u...) Had it all But i guess my all wasn't good enough for you (Baby I've...) Accepted it And I aint gone trip Girl im movin on (Sometimes I give...) Up and think that another mans gonna get the one I made 4 me...(Ohh, baby)

{Chorus}
How could you let somebody lay where I layed? How could you give him everything that we made? How could you call him all the names thaat u used to call me? How could you how could you just forget bout me? How could you teach him all the things I taught You? How could you put him up to the Ghetto Karmasutra? How could you put me in the back and give him the front seat? How could you how could you just forget bout me?...

{Chorus 2}
How could you how could you just go and lay there? How could you how could just give him everything? How could you how could you call him names like that? How could you babe? How could you babe? How could you how could you teach him everything?
[fades]

xo/- 9:38 PM
Pertie :)

Friday, August 12, 2005

Hmmm... Me is having break... Feeling very sleepy cos went to sleep at bout 3 plus last night... INSOMNIA again... And i think i found the reason y... Cos i've been taking coke at night... Last night i did... N i couldn't sleep... Haha... Now i noe i gotta avoid taking coke at night... Or if i wanna study... Den i'll take like 5 cans of coke or sth... Haha... Hmmm... Eh... Actually... I dunno wat else to say also... Hmmm... Haha... Nvrmd... I'll end here...

:) Cheers (:

xo/- 11:57 AM
Pertie :)

Sunday, August 7, 2005

Sometimes a man has to choose
And do something he doesn't wanna do
Do I live my life with you as my wife
Or do I go on and pursue my lifetime dream
I gotta do this for me
Cuz if I don't I'll probably regret it
But if I do I'll probably regret it
How do I cope

How do you cope when
The one you love is with somebody else
And there's nothing you could do about it
How do I deal with
The fact that you had a chance
But you chose to turn away for your career
I gotta take it though it's heartbreakin'
It's something that I had to do
But nobody said that it would hurt so bad
So how do I live...how do I deal without you

It's killing me to know
That your heart hurts with me
But you're with him cause I chose
To be in this industry
Money, shows, and hoes come along with luxury and pain
Is all you see when you think about it
But this is the life that I was given
So I have to live it to the fullest
But how do I deal in the meantime without you

How do you cope when
The one you love is with somebody else
And there's nothing you could do about it
How do I deal with
The fact that you had a chance
But you chose to turn away for your career
I gotta take it though it's heartbreakin'
It's something that I had to do
But nobody said that it would hurt so bad
So how do I live...how do I deal without you

How do you deal with when you cant be with the one
When the one you love is with somebody else
What do you do when you know she dont love him
But she love you, but she cant stand loving you far away

I guess I'm gonna have to just deal with it deal with it.
I dont want to have to live with it.
You just deal with it, deal with it.
No, No, No, No
You just deal with it, deal with it.
I dont want no body else loving you,
I dont want no body else loving me.

How do you cope when
The one you love is with somebody else
And there's nothing you could do about it
How do I deal with
The fact that you had a chance
But you chose to turn away for your career
I gotta take it though it's heartbreakin'
It's something that I had to do
But nobody said that it would hurt so bad
So how do I live...how do I deal without you

How do you cope when
The one you love is with somebody else
And there's nothing you could do about it
How do I deal with
The fact that you had a chance
But you chose to turn away for your career

Today went to help out at NSC for the Pesta Sukan race... Quite tiring lah.. But i learnt a lot of things... Den quite burnt also... Hmmm... After that went out for dinner with my family to celebrate my bro's bdae in advance.. It's actually tmr but he is unable to take leave from camp... So poor thing... Lol... Yeah... So celebrated for him today... Den went to the arcade at causeway point to play... Very tired... So din really have a lot of energy to play also... Den just reached back... Supposed to do RWPS... But i really dunno how to start... Sigh... This semester... Things haven been gg very well... Things with the friendship... Sigh... Nvrmd... I am too tired to explain... Pple wanna misunderstand me den let it be... Sigh... Luckily i still have a cool bunch of friends who really understand me... To these friends of mine out there... I LOVE YOU!!! Thanx for being there for me all these while...

Cheers... :)

xo/- 10:57 PM
Pertie :)

Thursday, August 4, 2005

Me is having break now... So thought i'll just drop a post... I haven been doing very well for my tests even though i passed everything... But i'll work harder... Yup... Hmmm... I dunno y but i cdn't sleep well last night and i'm feeling freaking tired today... To make things worse... The weather is cold and i'll be having 4 consecutive hours of lectures in the coldest lecture theatre in SB... Damn... Bleah... I think i'm gonna be feeling horrible ltr... Lol... Hmmm... This weekend got Pesta Sukan race... But i'm not gg on Sat... Cos stupid Dale ask me to take over his job at RSYC... Stupid... Hmmm... But not bad lah... I get 25 bucks for just stoning for 3 hours... Lol... Ok lah... I ggtg for lesson le... And great!!! I din bring all my notes... F**k man... Grrrrrrrrr!!!!!!!!!

Cheers...

Here's a song i heard this morning... And it's stuck in my head...

I Need To Know - Marc Anthony

They say around the way you ask for me
There´s even talk about you wanting me
I must admit that´s what I want to hear
So let´s just talk until you take me there...oh
If it´s true don´t leave me all alone out here
wondering if you´re ever gonna take me there
Tell me what you´re feeling ´cuz I need to know
Girl you gotta let me know which way to go

Cuz I need to know
I need to know
Tell me baby girl cuz I need to know
I need to know
I need to know
Tell me baby girl cuz I need to know

My every thought is of us being true
It´s getting harder not to think of you
Girl I´m exactly where I want to be
The only thing´s I need you hear with me..oh

If it´s true don´t leave me all alone out here
wondering if you´re ever gonna take me there
Tell me what you´re feeling ´cuz I need to know
Girl you gotta let me know which way to go

Cuz I need to know
I need to know
Tell me baby girl cuz I need to know
I need to know
I need to know
Tell me baby girl cuz I need to know

xo/- 12:57 PM
Pertie :)

Wednesday, August 3, 2005

Darlin’ I can’t explain
Where did we lose our way
Girl it’s drivin’ me insane
And I know I just need one more chance
To prove my love to you

If you come back to me
I’ll gurantee
That I’ll never let you go

Chorus:
Can we go back to the days when our love was strong
Can you tell me how a perfect love goes wrong
Can somebody tell me how to get things back
They way they use to be
Oh God give me a reason
I’m down on bended knee

I’ll never walk again until you come back to me
I’m down on bended knee
So many nights I dream of you
Holding my pillow tight
I know that I don’t need to be alone

I open up my eyes
To face reality
Every moment without you
It seems like eternity
I’m begging you, begging you come back to me

Chorus

Mike’s monolauge:
Baby, I’m sorry
Please forgive me for all the wrong
I’ve donePlease come back home girl
I know you put all your trust in me
I’m sorry I let you down
Please forgive me
Gonna swallow my pride
Say I’m sorry
Stop pointing fingers the blame is on me
I want a new life
And I want it with you
If you feel the same
Don’t ever let it go
You gotta believe in the spirt of love
It can heal all things
We won’t hurt anymore
No I don’t believe our love’s terminal
I’m down on my knees begging you please
Come home

Chorus

xo/- 11:24 PM
Pertie :)

Everything seems to be my fault huh? Maybe it's better for the whole world if i just die... Everyone will be happier huh? Always say i make things worse.. When i dun even noe wat i did... N nobody wanna tell me anything... But just ask me to leave them alone... Fine... I'll do just that... Maybe if i leave the entire world alone... Everyone will be happier...

xo/- 12:04 AM
Pertie :)

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