Friday, December 16, 2005
Why are people so selfish? Why do pple not care bout how I feel even though i always put other's feelings before i do sth? Why do pple not give a fucking damn about pple who care? What the fuck?! I hate the whole... It's just so ugly... If no one's gonna care... Neither am i... From now on i will only bother bout pple who care... N fuck care those who dun...
xo/-
2:01 PM
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Thursday, December 15, 2005
Me having IS... Again... And i am freaking cold... Freezing like shit lidat... I dun seem to ever learn my lesson right? Every week i come for lesson... Every week i freeze but every week i will not bother to bring jacket... Today wearing shorts instead of long pants... Even worse... Brrrrr... Later starting work at 6... At Suntec... Dunno if it's good or bad for me... Hope i can cope... Hope i dun die of fatique... Sigh... Well... At least i think the uniform is quite ok... At least it's black... Haha... Hmmm... Quite pressurising... Nvrmd lah... I am STRONG... I can take it... But i cant take the cold in here... Fuck man!!! Cant type le... My fingers are freezing... Can bearly feel the keyboard... Haha... Think i shall just end here... :):) Cheers (:
xo/-
11:46 AM
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Tuesday, December 13, 2005
Lalalalalalalalala... I've been poning school again... Lemme see... For the whole of last week and for this week... Yesterday and today... Why? Hmmm... Cos been busy initially and den cos of BIGGGGGGG prob at home... No mood... Hmmm... Maybe they are excuses... But i really got no mood... Fri, sat and sun was at SAF yacht club... Supposed to race but ended up not racing... But we got SECOND!!!! Cos there were only two schools taking part in that category... Haha... So lame... Anyway... Me got a job... At Carl's Junior at Suntec... Starting work this thurs... I'll be like freaking busy and tired and... busy? Hmmm... Hope i can cope and hope someone dun complain i'm neglecting her... Haha... Angie is sleeping beside me... Like a little pig... Haha... Me got a lot of things to complain bout my assholic club president... But well... I dun think i'll do it here... Grrrrr... Just wanna rip the shit outta the asshole... Hmmm... Me supposed to be studying for my test which will start in half an hour... But well... No mood... Anyway... The prob i have now is family probs and club probs... but the main one is still family... Sigh... Sometimes i just wanna give up everything and go to another country and start life anew... maybe Australia will be good? At least i got close friends there... Sigh... I got my passport with me... I can go anytime... Haha... Maybe once i get the money i'll just buy an air ticket and disappear... So only pple who read my blog will noe what happened to me when i disappear... Tsk tsk... Sianz... Dun wanna go home later... But i guess i got no choice... Jacque... Meet u tonight k? Gimme a call before u come over lah... Might be too tired too meet u... Den maybe we go eat supper and go for a drink... I'll drink soft drink though... Haha... I dunno why but i suddenly cant take alcohol... Will get diarrhoea... Tsk tsk... K lah... Think I shall just end here... Angie is bored... I AM NOT BORED> I AM SICK!!!!! -SNIFF SNIFF-Lol... And she keep bullying me today... Ask me to buy sweets and chocolate for her... Treat her nasi lemak somemore... K lah... She also always got treat me lah...EH! I ALWAYS TREAT U ALSO WOKAES! HMPFH.See how defensive she gets!!!HMFPH!!!!!-POUTS- Lol... Pout somemore u'll look like a duck... K lah... Really should end here and take a rest before my test... :) Cheers (:
xo/-
4:20 PM
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Monday, December 5, 2005
Me never go for lessons today cos... I'm freaking tired out by yesterday's trg... Plus... Got backache... Den need to study some more... Den also got a lot of things to plan... ARGHHHHHH!!!! ~bleah~
Angie is sitting next to me... scratching like a monkey full of fleas... Maybe i can catch some and sell them at the SB Flea Market on Wed?! Haha...
Hmmm... Shall just put down a song and end here...
Because of You - Kelly ClarksonI will not make
The same mistakes that you did
I will not let myself
Cause my heart so much misery
I will not break
The way you did, you fell so hard
I've learned the hard way
To never let it get that far
Because of you
I never stray too far from the sidewalk
Because of you
I learned to play on the safe side so I don't get hurt
Because of you
I find it hard to trust not only me, but everyone around me
Because of you
I am afraid
I lose my way
And it's not too long before you point it out
I cannot cry
Because I know that's weakness in your eyes
I'm forced to fake
A smile, a laugh, every day of my life
My heart can't possibly break
When it wasn't even whole to start with
Because of you
I never stray too far from the sidewalk
Because of you
I learned to play on the safe side so I don't get hurt
Because of youI find it hard to trust not only me, but everyone around me
Because of you
I am afraid
I watched you die
I heard you cry every night in your sleep
I was so young
You should have known better than to lean on me
You never thought of anyone else
You just saw your pain
And now I cry in the middle of the night
For the same damn thing
Because of you
I never stray too far from the sidewalk
Because of you
I learned to play on the safe side so I don't get hurt
I tried my hardest just to forget everything
Because of you
I don't know how to let anyone else in
Because of you
I'm ashamed of my life because it's empty
Because of you
I am afraid
Because of you
Because of you
xo/-
11:17 AM
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Thursday, December 1, 2005
Me just posted on the sailing blog... Still feeling very heated... So not in a very good mood... AAAARRRRRRGGGGGHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!! ~bleah~ Feeling a little better now... Hmmm... Having a stupid 3 hour droning sessions again... ------------------------------------------------------------------------ok... first thing first... trg on sun was horrendous... I was practically screaming my lungs out like almost all the time... Grrrrr!!!! Let's not tok bout that...------------------------------------------------------------------------Next thing... Yesterday's physical trg... Only Angie and Kc were there with me... Where are the rest?! What the f**k man!!! Piss me off only... But Angie and I enjoyed ourselves... Haha... *winkz* Haha... ------------------------------------------------------------------------Dat N**h ah... Very dumb one... Obviously A**** dun wanna meet her and tok to her right... Still keep calling her... Never ans means dun wanna ans lah... So dumb one... Some pple are just thick-headed... Info just cannot get into their mind... She thinks A**** is asking if she should stay or go because of her... She thinks too highly of herself le... Haha... It's not her loh... She refering to her eye-candy loh... So thick skin...-----------------------------------------------------------------------So sian... Nat is sitting in the next class facing me... But cant see her... We are both too short... The monitor blocking us... Haha... I can see Terene... She keep smiling... Dunno why also... Haha... Must be Nat's crap lah... Ask me to pay attention... But i bet she is not either... -----------------------------------------------------------------------Me just took out my contact lens and put it back in class... Luckily Xin Hui never see... Or i think she will scream... She screams at everything i do... When i crack my bones... When i bite my sweets... When i drink soft drink in the mrg... She is traumatised by mu skin colour... She is scared of me!!!! Haha... K lah... Sianz... Dunno wat to do... Think shall end here... Hope everything is alright at Angie's side with her mum... :):) Cheers (:
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10:35 AM
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