Sigh... I'm feeling really fucked up... Today is my birthday... N probably that's y i'm feeling worse than before... Sigh... I guess till after this wed den i'll feel better... If the case is settled that is... I hope i wun get into too big the trouble... Sigh... Sometimes i really feel like no one cares at all... N i'm all alone... But sometimes when i feel that way... Somehow a friend or another will pop out and give me an assuring hug n make me feel better... But it's no longer the same person who used to do that for me 2-3 years ago... We can onlyshare happiness but not prob... She's no longer by my side when i have prob... Sigh... What to do? I used to think she's a fantastic friend... Now i'm wrong... She goes for what is more important to her... I used to be important to her that's y... Now that i'm not the important person in her life... I never get that kinda treatment from her again... But yet she still expects a lot from me... Sigh... Guess till the day i cant take it anymore... I'll still do what i can for her... Sigh... Just hope this period will blow over and everything will go back on track again... Sigh...